3/365

1. the smell of clean laundry
2. cooking a new meal that comes out delicious
3. a good night sleep
4. Pink Lady apples
5. getting magazines in the mail

I'm Back

I have been missing from here lately, not sure why, I guess I've just been unmotivated or lazy, I have thoughts swimming in my head just waiting to be written but I just have not had the oomph to sit down and unload them. So I decided to come back, to be more dedicated, to unloading all those swimming thoughts.

Some updates on a few things...

Work has been going very well, at first I guess I didn't come here to write because things were frustrating and hard, and I had no desire to whine about it because all it needed was time to get better. And it has, I have very much surprised myself with my abilities at work, prior to now I would walk past these very sick babies and hear stories of these very sick babies and could only dream of ever being capable of caring for them. My old job was so redundant that I felt I didn't use many brain cells to get through my 12 hour shifts, there was not much of a challenge which I wanted so bad... Now, I use every brain cell in my brain and some days still leave feeling like I have no clue what I'm doing, like what have I gotten myself into. But, I have taken care of babies I would only "dream" of being competent enough to deal with. Babies I would look at before and think how the heck do you make sense of all the pumps and lines and drips and tubes, and now, I am feeling more comfortable with it all and I'm feeling more like I know what I'm doing. Mind you I am not alone I have an amazing preceptor to guide me and make sure I don't do anything to harm anyone as I learn, and I also have a great God as my strength to get me through those times when I think I am so dumb and just need to quit immediately.

Don't get me wrong its still tough and always will be, some days I go to my car and cry because I'm overwhelmed or frustrated, but I also have days that I go to my car and Praise God I was able to accomplish what I did, And the day that I go to work and think I know it all is the day I need to find a new line of work because I will never know it all, no one will, and I think having a desire to learn and seek out information is vital. But for now I can say again that I love my job which a month ago I honestly could not say.

As for the crazy dog... He is still crazy.

We have started obedience training and it has gone very well so far, he has surprised me with his abilities. We are working on stay, leave it, and shake. Its only week two and I couldn't have imagined he would do this good so early in the game but hes not perfect and still acts like a puppy at times which drives me crazy... his latest is he thinks whenever I sit on the couch he needs to sit on my lap, which is not my idea of fun considering he's 85 lbs, and he likes to bite our feet which HURTS!!! Its going to take time to break him of these things because when we scold him he thinks it means do it more... not sure why... we squirt him with water and use stern voices but so far not so good on that front, only time will tell.

New Job

So Im sure some are wondering how the infamous first week at the new job went. Well I survived the first week, and it was a bit of a reality shock, I feel like i know NOTHING. Things are done SOOOOO diffrent at this hospital and thats what Im having the hardest time with, diffrent policies, diffrent equipment, diffrent culture... everything. It will just take time to learn and adjust, but the unit is so much bigger and everyone has been really nice and I have seen and experienced so much in just the three days ive been there I can only imagine the things ill see and experience in the months and years to come. I have an Awesome preceptor, shes so knowledgeable and easy to get along with I think she is really going to help me to adjust and become a part of the team.

Im also very relieved to know that traffic is not bad at all working night shift im going the opposite way of the traffic, such a blessing, I couldnt imagine having to leave my house 2 hours early to get to work on time as I did when i was having to be at the hospital by 8 am for orientation, that just wouldnt do.

2/365

2/365:

1. getting the dog neutered
2. ATT Uverse
3. Chocolate cupcakes with buttercream frosting
4. New shoes
5. Central Market fresh squeezed OJ (its simply amazing, I do drive thrity minute sout of the way just to buy some)

AWESOMENESS

This is absolutlely Hilarious!!! You must watch it till the end...the dad is video taping the little boy after he went to the dentist and I suppose the happy gas hasnt worn off yet

Excitement Ensues

So today is the day, I finally go back to work and start my new job. I'm SO excited, this is what I have wanted to do since I graduated a year ago and wasn't able to do because I was a new graduate nurse they didn't have enough preceptors (the nurses who trains you, for us it was about 5 months) in the level III NICU so I spent a year in level II which is a step down unit to the NICU, the babies are more stable and don't need as intensive monitoring. It was too slow for me, I need a challenge and some excitement.

So here I am staring my new job the unit is HUGE in the level III alone they can hold between 80-90 babies the entire unit level II and III can hold up to 135 babies... that's HUGE and the unit is really nice. I am a little nervous though because things are very different here I'm out of my comfort zone, I have new people to meet, new rules to learn, and much sicker babies to care for. I just keep reminding myself to take one day at a time and I'm not alone I have my preceptor to guide me through the next three months. More worrisome is that I haven't worked night shift in about a month and i only had one day to transition myself, this should be interesting... bring on the caffeine!!!

Wish me luck and say a prayer.

Grace in Small Things

1/365:

1. Velveeta Mac and Cheese
2. When the Dog is acting good
3. Chuys
4. Having my dream job
5. Cable TV

Grace in Small Things