***Just a precursor, If you dont care about breastfeeding you can stop now because that is all this post is about :) ***
Well its official, we are no longer breast-feeding. We made it 17 months and I am positive L would have liked to go longer but, we really want to expand our family and I think the continuation of breastfeeding is hindering our efforts.
This was really something that gave me a lot of anxiety, I didn't want it to be too traumatic for L, I didn't want mastitis again for the 3rd time, It seemed like such a huge transition, it was a huge part of our daily routine and process I wasn't sure how it was going to ever happen, I really had nightmares that I would be the one with the 3 yr old nursing haha!
The thought actually entered my head a several months ago when I decided I did not need to pump at work anymore, I really wanted more social time at lunch and didn't want to run away to pump LOL, once that went ok for a while I would just nurse at home when I was off work but always before bed and in the AM. This is what I was worried about.
FInally, one day I decided we were done...or so I thought...I put L to bed that night without milk...and he went to sleep. No crying no fuss...I was in disbelief, was this really going to be that easy??
By the next morning I was pretty engorged and sore and had a fleeting thought that this was actually over, this thing that was such a huge part of our life and such a huge bonding event in our daily life was over. I got really sad and when L woke he was crying and I just couldn't help but to nurse him. I just needed that one last moment. Which ended up being the next two mornings as well.
By about the third day we were done...I would be slightly sore but really could tell there wasn't much milk anymore. L would get fussy but when he would pull on my shirt I would get him a sippy cup of warm milk and distract him with TV or something else. It honestly went way way easier than I thought, no mastitis only a few meltdowns by L and really no other issues.
We had originally thought 18 months would be our cut off but I think once we decided we were done we were done and so we made it 17 months, I am so proud of us and can only hope that we will be blessed with more babies in the future and have once again a great breast-feeding situation.