Thursday, January 16, 2014

Big Brother

The beginning was trying on us all and I shed more tears out of mom guilt than I anticipated I would.  When I was in the hospital with L2 I found myself more concerned with L1 and how was he at home and when I was there in the hospital bed exhausted and frustrated with my crying newborn, all I could think about was going home and curling up with my sweet firstborn.

Those early days I just felt so guilty when he would act out or cry because he wanted me to hold him or do something for him and I couldn't.  It hurt my heart when he would cry because he just wanted me to sit in the room with him…but not with the baby.  I knew this was just an adjustment phase but the feeling that I ruined his little life was imprinted on my mind.  There was one day when he wouldn't nap and that evening he fell asleep in my arms while I rocked him early in the evening because he just wanted me to hold him.  He never falls asleep when I hold him anymore and he rarely wants me to just sit and hold him.  I sat there staring at his mile long lashes and amazingly full lips and just cried.   never wanted that moment to end and I just wanted him to know he will always be my most special boy because he was my firstborn, the boy who made me a mommy.  The boy we tried and prayed for for longer than I imagined we would have to.

Now, I think his little world would be ruined if we took his brother away.  He is absolutely in love with his "baby brudder." I could watch them together all day.  L will be playing on the other side of the room and randomly stop and come over just to give L2 a kiss.  I find myself saying " don't touch his face, don't squish him, don't lay on him" more than I can count in a day.  He wants to be with his brother all day.  He will get frustrated if baby brudder is crying because he wants me to lay him down so he can play with him.  He loves to share his trucks with him.  The cutest thing is he will grab his face and say "cheeks, cheeks" while squishing his cheeks.  I have no idea where he learned that but it kills me every time!

He is such a sweet and caring big brother, he loves to wipe the spit up and try to feed him bottles and give him a paci.  Any time he cries he will run over and pat his head and say "whats wrong baby, why you cryin?"

I love watching them together because I know they are going to be best buddies more so than they already are when they are older and I see the relationship my hubby has with his brothers and I love that L will have that as well.

I shouldn't have been worried as I knew L would adjust like a champ as he has done with all his major milestones up to this point, it was just so hard in the moment.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

L2 Month One

How on earth my little guy is already a month old is beyond me! I seriously feel like just yesterday we brought him home from the hospital.  I guess the adjustments of life with 2 and the holidays just put life on fast foreword.

The first month was not an easy one.  To be honest I am glad its behind us now.  I think the first month of life with any newborn is not easy but we had some issues that I had a really hard time dealing with and we are honestly still dealing with them Ive just had more time to process everything.  No worries, its nothing life threatening just more emotional than anything.  I really want to dedicate a whole post to the matter because its quite extensive in all its entirety.

My lil guy is getting so big! At the conclusion of month one he has become quite the little chunk and I love it! There is nothing I love more than a chunky little baby!!

We celebrated his first christmas this month and while he could care less about any of it, we all had a great time just relaxing and enjoying family.

Big brother is IN LOVE, it is all we can do to keep him out of his brothers face.  I just love that they are already buddies and I can't wait to see their love and friendship grow in the future.

He has started to smile and he smiles all the time, not the reflexive smiling, this is true social smiling, when any of us starts to talk to him he lights up with the biggest grin! His first smile was at two weeks old and he really is just such a happy baby!

The ceiling fan is his favorite and he could stare at it for ever, when we turn it on briefly so it moves…his mind is blown!!

He is out of newborn clothes {Tear} and fits well into 0-3 months.  He is much bigger than L1 was at this age, it will be interesting to see if he continues to be bigger.

He eats anywhere from 2.5-4 ounces every 2-3 hours and at night on most nights I can get a good 4 hour stretch at the beginning, after that though its back to every two hours which means once I pump and go back to sleep he is up in an hour…its quite exhausting!

And just for a fun little comparison because people always ask if I think L2 looks like his older brother:

I'm Katie a 27 year old mommy and wife. Welcome to my blog where I will chronicle the happenings of my life as I find the balance between being both SAHM by day and CVICU nurse by night.

I love Jesus and strive to be more like Christ every day. Running, reading, and cooking are some of my favorite past-times. I love photography but I am no pro, but it helps I have such a cute subject to practice on!!




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